[ Tim starts annotating his response as soon as Kon starts talking as usual. Picking apart the arguments, trying to reinforce that he isn’t different. That older isn’t different, that the damage isn’t that bad.
That he doesn’t want Kon to change for him. Or without him. (Without saying “no, you’re already as perfect as you thought you were when we met).
That, for the millionth time, Tim’s hurt isn’t supposed to be a factor in these decisions, and, if he wants to hurt himself by repressing or self-editing to make others happy to make himself happy, he is allowed to do so because this is still a free country.
(Although they’re not technically in the United States, so he should strike that argument.)
That his feelings for Kon are verboten.
That -
He hangs on the next point like a stream with no internet connection. Truth be told, nothing else makes it past his ears. It’s an eternity of waiting for it to be his turn and struggling to keep a wince and wretched hope off his face.
Re: GAIA
That he doesn’t want Kon to change for him. Or without him. (Without saying “no, you’re already as perfect as you thought you were when we met).
That, for the millionth time, Tim’s hurt isn’t supposed to be a factor in these decisions, and, if he wants to hurt himself by repressing or self-editing to make others happy to make himself happy, he is allowed to do so because this is still a free country.
(Although they’re not technically in the United States, so he should strike that argument.)
That his feelings for Kon are verboten.
That -
He hangs on the next point like a stream with no internet connection. Truth be told, nothing else makes it past his ears. It’s an eternity of waiting for it to be his turn and struggling to keep a wince and wretched hope off his face.
(Ask.)
(Don’t ask.)
(Ask.)
(Don’t ask.)
(Ask.)
(Don’t ask.) ]
You’re stifling feelings about me?
[ Unrecoverable. ]