It is almost funny how foreign he is to his own emotions, especially given his profession. In one way or another, life has taught him that emotions are something that other people have and that he has to study and navigate so that he can speak their language and understand what they want him to do, since before that he was only capable of understanding what they threaten him with when he doesn't do it.
No matter how much he studied, how talented he is at understanding people, he cannot study and comprehend himself in the same regard because he is not one of them, 'people' has never included him. For what concerns him, he can experience five emotions, maybe, if you count hunger. And yes, he was surprised when he was young and they told him hunger wasn't an emotion. No amount of reading, of scientific evidence has ever been able to resolve that discrepancy.
Doesn't help that he lied his way through acquiring a license. They said he wasn't suitable for the job, but he is. He can dig a hole inside others just fine, regardless of what he is himself.
"You need help." he says not with compassion, but with disgust.
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It is almost funny how foreign he is to his own emotions, especially given his profession. In one way or another, life has taught him that emotions are something that other people have and that he has to study and navigate so that he can speak their language and understand what they want him to do, since before that he was only capable of understanding what they threaten him with when he doesn't do it.
No matter how much he studied, how talented he is at understanding people, he cannot study and comprehend himself in the same regard because he is not one of them, 'people' has never included him. For what concerns him, he can experience five emotions, maybe, if you count hunger. And yes, he was surprised when he was young and they told him hunger wasn't an emotion. No amount of reading, of scientific evidence has ever been able to resolve that discrepancy.
Doesn't help that he lied his way through acquiring a license. They said he wasn't suitable for the job, but he is. He can dig a hole inside others just fine, regardless of what he is himself.
"You need help." he says not with compassion, but with disgust.